I haven’t written in forever. I hate that I don’t have time to write because sharing on this blog has been truly therapeutic. You hear people say that all of the time, but it seems writing about the things God does bring new life to the soul. So what have I been doing?
Over the last several months, God has tapped me on the shoulder more than once to simply pray. This has happened to me before. I believe with my whole heart, God sees us when we struggle. He not only sees and feels our pain; He calls someone (or maybe many) to walk this road with us in prayer. And so, He has prompted me, awakened me at night and impressed on my heart to pray. Normally, this would be easy. I love to pray. But this time is different. He’s asking me to pray for someone I hardly know. Needless to say, it’s been a faith walk for sure. But I have learned some things about myself in the process.
I am reminded the problem is not really God’s concern. It seems He is more focused on the walk to the solution. You see, no problem is too big for God. He can do anything. But ultimately, it’s the journey He cares about. Along the way we learn to trust Him in ways we never would have before. We learn that He actually has a plan and all is worked out. My problem is that I think I will mess up His plan. But no, nothing I can do will ever change what God intends.
I also learned how fearful I am. It seems God has had to drag me along on this ride. He has had to persuade me. I have tried to walk away, but He simply won’t let me. He wants me to stay the course. I keep asking Him, “Why me?” I have absolutely no idea what I am doing. I don’t know how this person feels. I have no words of wisdom. I guess that’s precisely the point. It’s not about me. And how arrogant of me to think otherwise.
My scripture for this year is:
Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, 2 fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. (Hebrews 12:1-2)
I never realized how much fear hinders our lives. The reason we can’t seem to move forward with God is because of fear. It literally cripples us. It seems God is showing me this over and over. He’s making me do the things I fear the most.
This morning I had a special time in prayer. I have been agreeing in prayer with someone different for a few weeks and it seems God has answered our prayers. I was so thankful to pray with her. And I am praising God for His protection over her. But even more so, I sobbed because I felt so privileged to pray and encourage a sister in the Lord. I felt so honored to be chosen, really.
I don’t know where you find yourself today. Perhaps you are someone in need of prayer. God will send the perfect person to pray with you. Or maybe, He’s tapped you on the shoulder and invited you to walk the road with someone who desperately needs prayer. Whatever the case, know that He is in complete control and He really has a plan.